im not okay

Damn!!!why i must feel this fucking feeling again???This stupid feeling make me so powerless,then now make me hurt. Even many people make this feeling so special, but diferent than me...this so hard to me. make me hard to sleep well, make me hard to think another way! damned!!! LAst month i feel this "baka" thing twice. and why i so sick at this rate. god give me power to ignore this curse. Give me power to change my heart become strong!